#adhd showering

[nocturnowlette]

sometimes i think about the fact that jeff bezos went to space, saw the entirety of humanity in one small sphere, a complete, cascading view of all of our achievements and failures, all life and death, scars and healing encapsulated in one set of eyes, spinning gently in the endless blackness, and came back to earth having learned nothing at all

[shaykai]

Like oil and old perfume

[my-autism-adhd-blog]

Seriously I have a love/hate relationship with showers…

Funny ADHD ASD Memes

[strangelittlestories]

There’s a larp (live action roleplaying) game that I play, where there exists a creature we have dubbed a ‘Chronovore’.

This planet-sized sci-fi beastie eats time via a cool-ass external digestive system that ranges out from its main corpus (what are effectively its digestive enzymes look like glowing blue-winged angels, which are creepy as sin).

My character in this game fell victim to said chronovoric digestion and was aged 30 years by the experience. They lost what they expected to be the most valuable years of their life - the time when they expected to most make a difference to the universe.

I have a lot of emotions about this. Especially because when I look at my life aged 39 and consider the shape I am trying to hammer it into, one thought keeps recurring: I wish I had started this work sooner.

And then I consider my ADHD (a condition I am really certain I have, but am still seeking diagnosis for) and damn if I do not feel like it straight up ate decades of my life.

That’s how it feels, gang. There’s this bubbling resentful rage and grief for years spent with an invisible wall between me and what I wanted. For the nights where I spent (and still spend) revenge procrastinating and wrecking my days. For all the hours chasing short-term dopamine that was often destructive for me.

Hours. Days. Years. Eaten by a part of me that often feels like a monster squatting in my brain, hiding in my bones.

It reminds me, too, of that scene from a Hammer Horror movie where a monster expert is talking about vampires and says something like “Oh, you still think vamps are just things with big teeth that gotta bite your neck and drink your blood? Sweet baby, there’s all kinds of these creatures; some of them just fully suck your life straight out of your soul.”

This is why I don’t think I’ll ever think of my ADHD as a superpower. Or, at least, if it is: it’s from one of those gritty think piece superhero stories where your power is also a hecking curse.

I am preoccupied by what my own brain has taken from me.

And the thing is: it’s not really true. At least, not all the way true.

Those years I think of as lost were filled with good times. I made meaningful connections. I wrote poems and stories that I love. I performed art that meant something to me in front of people who enjoyed it. I consumed a lot of good media. I learned and dreamed and tried really hard to be a person I could be happy being.

But I also let a lot of the things fall into the background. I started a lot, but didn’t finish a lot. I missed the chance to work on skills that are now harder to learn because I’m older.

So I find myself cursing the Chronovore.

I nearly wrote this as a piece of fiction. If I had, I would probably have ended with the protagonist finding a way to subvert or redeem or work with the Chronovore.

Maybe the satisfying ending just this: none of us get as much time as we want. We all give time away - whether it be taxed by things we resent or gifted to what is important.

The Chronovore is not special.

And if it is not special, then it is mutable.

Maybe that is enough.

[silvermoon424]

Me not wanting to get in the shower: 😕

Me in the shower: 🥰❤️😍

Me getting out of the shower: 😕

[lylahammar]

does anyone else feel like they become neurotypical while they're in the shower

[alexandraisyes]

When your ADHD is making you hear and process everything at once and it’s overstimulating but you also have no object permanence and bad memory and so you’re overstimulated and don’t even know why

Not something I’m experiencing currently but I’m thinking about it

Ruminating

Wondering if anyone else has this specific issue

[sualne]

messy warm ups cause it's been a minute

[iwanttobepersephone]

So, my mom was telling me how much free time I have, and I was like, "I have no freetime wth do you mean?????" And I just wanna see if this is like. A normal way to think of things?

Things I need to do:

Finish reading icebound land

Make a whole lotta art that I promised people

Research study abroad programs

At least one Dutch lesson a day

Keep my room clean

Talk to my friends so they know I love them (and so I don't go insane)

My math homework

Keep myself clean (showers, finally brushing my teeth after months, etc etc) so I don't go insane

Eat at 7pm

Various things I enjoy as to not go insane

All from 6pm to 9 pm, every day, after being at school from 8 am to 3:30 pm and then The Public (teen center) from 3:30 to 5:30, and I need to be in bed by 9:30 and asleep by 10:00

So, basically, I'm "on the clock" from 7 am (When I start getting ready for school) until 9 pm, with no breaks

But yeah no I totally have free time. Yeaup

[audhd-space]

I read a thread on twitter that said that capitalism made the neurotypical gaps to be so narrowed that often capitalism relies on pushing you beyond your capabilities as humans, and that means capitalism punishes you for being human, and punishes you more if you have disability because it’s not profitable

[stinkypeanutbutter]

he borrowed Logan’s glasses cause he forget his contacts .

anyway there are too many things I want to DRAW NYOW !!!! All these things red has given us are too mucu for me to not give in and doodle I’m going INSANE !!!!!!! 🤯🤯💥💥

also ——

[the-patchwork-girl-of-oz]

It’s my first time taking ADHD medication and I just realized The Wizard of Oz still exists in the universe of The Wizard of Oz.

If the books revolved around Baum receiving letters from Dorothy and documenting them, then the books exist in the Oz universe as history books.

This also means most adaptations exist as either documentaries or historical fiction.

If Ozians have tv and computers, the main 4 in book 1 (everyone’s immortal and doesn’t age in the book btw) probably watched the 1939 movie and picked out all the inaccuracies.

They can see everything you’re doing with your adaptations.

They probably even know about the fanfics.

An Oz character could be reading this right now.

I can’t even IMAGINE how bizarre Wicked must have felt to them (even though I love it).

[agent-44mc]

I actually love tumblr because I can post things with hashtags and not be afraid™️. You can’t do that on Twitter. I like this place. I like it a lot.

to anyone who sees this hello! I’m glad the hashtag brought you to me and I hope you stay! I’m a writer and a poet and I do neither of those things often.

[operahousebookworm]

The wild Executive Function can be seen emerging from its den sometime between 1:30 and 2:45pm. It may stay out for several hours beyond that time, but it is almost impossible to spot unless you catch it during that emergence.

Sometimes after 10pm you may think you've been approached by a wild Executive Function. Use caution! This is most likely the feral Hyperfocus variant. It may appear to behave in similar ways, but only applied to tasks of the lowest importance. Further, it displays parasitic behaviors, depriving the host of sleep and blood sugar.

[mr-viwick]

Me (has no object permanence): hm, is my medication even working that well?

Also me:

aka I’m out of Ritalin and feeling the consequences (fighting not to fall asleep constantly)

[daughterofhecata]

I just realized something about my childhood.

My dad, coming home from work: Why is your backpack still on the stairs and not in your room, where it belongs?

Me: uuuh, forgot about it.

My dad, predominantly autistic: You just have to establish a routine, then this doesn't happen! Look, when I come home, I put my shoes here and take my backpack there and I always do it in this order and then nothing can go wrong!

Me, 12 years old, predominantly ADHD and unmedicated: *blinks in confused silence because I don't even have the words to explain how much I can't just do that*